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General discussion / Re: Depression
« on: November 07, 2019, 10:56:39 PM »
I don't know about all of ye but sometimes I just wonder. It's incredibly difficult to break on through this dark feeling. I'm a young guy, middle class and a well paid professional. I have seen a counsellor and psychotherapist in the last couple of years. I've stopped drinking(even though I drank f**k allin earnest), I've been swimming twice a week for months but I've started to isolate myself once again. I don't know if it's the dark evenings but I'm not replying to friends texts to go for a night out or cinema or whatever. The thought of going out with them feels me with anxiety due to guilt about having a bit of craic.I can't break this cycle!!! I think I'm doing well but then these self depreciating thoughts crops up again. My wife works extremely hard as do I and the kids are at a very difficult age however she's definitely not mixing her words one bit with me. I feel I do shit loads and sacrifice a lot but I really do get it with both barrels from her which is totally unjustified I feel. I certainly respect her a lot more. I haven't had a sleep in, in nearly 7 years and I do all I can to keep the peace. Actually a couple of my friends have stopped contacting me because I cancel arrangements a lot of the time. I've no connection to the rest of my family because they have their own shit going on and my mother only cares about her partner and when her next night out is. My children are the most important people in my life and I would cut my hands off for them. I remember how much passionate I used to be about Mayo winning Sam and such laughs and banter I'd have with the lads.Right now though its just about me surviving and I feel so alone with a wish that just someone would give me a f**king break and realise that I'm really doing my level best. My heart is in the right place all the time but at lot of those closest to me want to really make me feel as small as possible. I'm not going to give up on it as my children are so beautiful and vunerable but f**k me it's getting so hard. I know I'm my own worst enemy isolating myself but I feel so guilty 'enjoying' myself when I should be fresh and there for my kids and wife all the time.
I apologise if this sounds a little long winded and self indulgent but I just wanted to write down my thoughts and place them here in what I hope is an unassuming  and not a judging place like this forum.  :-\

disturbed cover of the sound of silence

Where the hell did you get that from....absolutely brilliant!!! Reminds me of Jack L. Pure class  :)

GAA Discussion / Re: Down versus Mayo
« on: June 21, 2019, 02:43:08 PM »
Was wondering about Ger Caff as well? Also is Cian Hanley still involved or is he injured? He never seems to get mentioned much anymore and certainly has hugh potential.

General discussion / Re: The Official Golf Thread
« on: June 11, 2019, 12:00:49 AM »
Any tips for US open folks? Who's on form or worth a putting a bit of moolah on heading into it?

General discussion / Re: Movie reccomendations
« on: December 29, 2018, 12:30:59 AM »
Netflix- Haunting of Hill House? Anyone see? First series...10 episodes.
Some watching from behind the couch moments for sure, esp episode 5 and 6  :-\

General discussion / Re: Depression
« on: November 03, 2018, 11:15:46 AM »
For all the negative sh*te on the board threads like this are really refreshing.....along with the alcohol thread recently introduced....

Still some really good people out there....

Keep up the great work......the support is incredible......I'm sure its providing comfort to those who require it....

Some bullshit and real arrogant w***ers on some threads but this you’re spot on, a lot of decent lads and ladies on the boards to help.

I agree wholeheartedly..I know I don't contribute very much on here but everyone's thoughts and tough stories and experiences have helped me greatly. I know I'm not alone and some if not all of us have these kind of chapters in our lives at some stage. Thanks to you all so much  ;)

General discussion / Re: Depression
« on: October 31, 2018, 10:44:08 PM »
Does anyone find they have destructive behaviour which keeps the flame of depression lighting? in you are generally horrified by your actions but it's a choice you make to ease some mental pain ie alcohol, self harming, risky behaviour? I posted on another  forum about my relationship with alcohol and since then I've taken the step of seeing someone professionally after severe unexpected family difficulties...esp from my wife from her childhood years unfortunately(you don't need to be a heinous to figure this one out). Somebody replied to my post about pouring all alcohol in the house down the sink which was drastic but it struck a chord about where I was and metaphorically shuck me up!!
So I've started therapy and am trying so hard to change my mindset. In doing so I'm trying CBT AND mindfulness/meditation.
It's so difficult as I'm still actively experiencing negative personal and family issues. It's such a difficult mind shift to make..I would consider myself a fairly intelligent guy with strong emotional connections but I'm struggling so much to see things clearly. I know I'm baffling and ranting but my question to you boys is how do ye  feel about the connection internally with mindfullness/CBT? Is it a habit after a while or is this difficulty somewhat always there?

General discussion / Re: Android Boxes
« on: October 31, 2018, 12:09:50 PM »
Sorry meant teaTV

General discussion / Re: Android Boxes
« on: October 31, 2018, 12:09:15 PM »
Anyone ever find an alternative to Terrarium for TV shows/Movies?

I have showbox but it is not great

Test seems be good

General discussion / Re: What's your relationship with alcohol?
« on: October 17, 2018, 11:11:34 PM »
Always had a healthy life, ran swam and cycled regularly.
Laughed and reached out to all my friends who had the need emotionally(was basically the go to guy!)..however in recent times it's all gone Pete Tong.
My wife is having some personal issues and my eldest child is causing some serious problems.
So to relate to the thread in question I've started drinking fairly regularly at home to escape all this shit which is crumbling me very slowly indeed. I'm far from happy in my life. That's a shit thing to say as any outsider who looks in would probably say I have it all. I'm sorry for ranting a bit but it's just how I feel. I don't recognise myself anymore and I'm scared

Hi folks, heading to Lanzarote with the family tomorrow for a couple of weeks and will miss replay. Anyone know whats best way to watch it online? Is rte player a goer? Pub might be an issue with 2 little ones!!  :o
RTE.Mainstreet i think said that the rte player was open with geo block removed for the game,I tried it just now and the geo is back up but you,ll be nearer hq even in lanzarote and like he said on the day so worth a peak.
GAAGO.Ive Derry,Kerry,and Donny mates both sides of the big pond who swear by this but invariably at some point have all ended up swearing at it!

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This one ya can take to the bank.Ive used this under shadow of aztec pyramids,cantinas where landlords stuck it up on a big screen yet you wouldnt get phone reception!Every game perfect.
The match is on skysports 2 but i stuck the address(dont know how to do links)for 5,GAA Championship review at 11pm tonight as you should do a dry run to work it out and check quality before ya leave,nothing worse than shittn a brick about seeing the big game,have it in your pocket.

Good luck on your travels
Thon "los futbolistas de Mayo.......y Dublin" ;D

Thanks for all the info people. I'll be more than sorted now. Miffed i'm missing being there but i'll plough on
 Tough over here in Puerto del Carmen. 26 degrees, went for a swim earlier and when I came back to the clan found I had a bit of sand in me 'corona'! Rough  8)

Hi folks, heading to Lanzarote with the family tomorrow for a couple of weeks and will miss replay. Anyone know whats best way to watch it online? Is rte player a goer? Pub might be an issue with 2 little ones!!  :o

The Revolution Will Not Be Televised  ;D :o

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