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Been part of the board now about 12/13 years. Have had a couple of different usernames, but very rarely post anymore. Always keep an eye on it and particularly this thread.

Not actually sure why I'm posting but sharing seems to help, and I suppose it's good to know if others have felt this way and how and if it has improved.

For about the last 4 years I could not honestly say I was happy. I've had the craic and not been down but just never happy. It's as if I'm just waiting for everything in life just to click into place all at once. And I know life's not like that. There are and will be challenges every single day and week, that's how it is.

But for the last 12 months or so I've been increasingly worse. I have my own small business which should run smoothly, but I do my best to hamper that. Any stress or problems from work have 100% been from my own actions. I would stay off drink, or maybe have a couple here and there, but every 6 weeks or so I'll take out and go on it for 3 or 4 days. Leading to missing work, making excuses to clients and putting myself under serious pressure.

Lately I've been having suicidal thoughts, though I know deep down it's not something I would ever do, even for the simple fact that I could not bear to do that to my family. This will sound like a complete contradiction but I know I have a good life. I have my own business, I'm relatively young and I live in a great place. Yet even though I've just written that I can't convince myself of it. I've lay in bed for days with anxiety. Afraid to leave the house. Knowing that getting a days work over me would put me back on track but just being unable to do it. The smallest of jobs or tasks can make me extremely anxious.

After confiding in a couple of close friends who both gave me the same advice I finally went to see my doctor. He was fantastic with the whole thing. I am on low dosage medication at the moment (only a few days in) and he is putting a plan in place for me. I got the same advice almost a year ago and agreed with it, but once I started to feel 'normal' again I just convinced myself I was overreacting and feeling sorry for myself. But if it's a continuing cycle (which it is) thens it's not normal, and it needs dealt with in the proper manner.

I'm a logical person and that's what scares me the most about this. None of it is rational or logical, which really frustrates me. Sometimes it does just feel like I'm feeling sorry for myself. The best metaphor I could think of is that I'm looking at €100 on a table wishing it was €1m, whereas I need to be looking at what that €100 could buy. I'm hoping over the next few weeks and months with the plan that I'll be happy and satisfied with my €100.

I'm not even sure why I've posted this but it's good to get words down and get any advice possible, particularly seeing how many people here actually have first hand experience.

Any help and advice is greatly appreciated and apologies if this seems like attention seeking or anybody feels they have to reply. Just another individual story I suppose.

Think Tyrone will win this one alright, maybe not a stuffing but unfortunately you don't need to be stuffing Derry without it feeling like it. Think Donegal last year, 3 points in it, a kick of a ball, and if you covered the score line the way Derry were playing you would swear we were getting hammered by 15 points. A lack of belief and 'get beat by as little as possible' seems to be our approach to the bigger teams.

Tight first half followed by Tyrone upping it a gear (into 3rd) - Tyrone by 5

Link?

[It's just the way it is! Don't worry about it!]

Why are people so worried about Kilkenny football. What about poor Leitrim, Waterford, Wicklow, Antrim - to name but a few! Jez you'd swear that they fell from some heights to end up with yesterdays result. Don't you be worrying about Kilkenny, they'll more than likely have a lad up in the Hogan come September.

They're making a mockery of the sport pretty much everyone here loves.

And I suppose counties like Cavan are doing their bit for Hurling? Look Kilkenny don't care it's not in their blood! No more than Hurling is not in 99% of Mayo blood! This did not happen over night. It's just the way it is! Don't worry about it! Believe me Kilkenny don't worry about the state of Hurling in Connacht or Ulster. In fact I'd say they are quiet happy the way it is set up for them to beat a couple of heavy weights each year to win AI Glory.

Try telling that to the 30 minors that went out and got absolutely trounced. They obviously have a passion for football and to be expected to just accept that kind of defeat and "not worry about it" is a ridiculous statement.

Garlic.
Mushrooms.
Garlic mushrooms.

Had the worst case of food poisoning in my life, thanks to a plate of garlic mushrooms. God knows why......they're not exactly raw oysters, now are they?

Pity, as I really like 'em, but I haven't been able to even look at them since.

One bad experience can turn you off for life.  The woman is the same with prawns, had very bad food poisoning with them, still eats them occasionally but needless to say when we cook them they're absolutely cremated to ensure not repeat of the past experience!

Add to my list rice pudding, not a massive fan of cheese either, will eat it alright but do without it if possible, on burgers etc.

As somebody said its funny how the pallete changes, the brother 'hated' onions for about 25 years until he discovered he liked them.

Garlic.
Mushrooms.
Garlic mushrooms.

I'm sure everybody knows at this stage that the vast majority of Joe's columns can be taken with a pinch of salt.  However if you look hard enough, remove the anecdotes and condensed his article into one or two paragraphs, most of the time he does have a valid point. He prefers the dramatics in his delivery, but for me hits the nail on the head more often than not.

Would agree with that. Joes objective is always to entertain first and to give insight second. He usually achieves both.
Amidst all the silliness he regularly raises some brilliant points and articulately dissects them with ease. Regardless of what you think of him, I don't know anyone who doesn't enjoy watching/listening to him.

What would be his brilliant point in the McGeeney article?

Well as I said, more often than not, certainly not all the time. Again, if you take away all the nonsense and summarise the article in a couple of lines perhaps its focusing on Geezer's approach. Perhaps his man management skills aren't there. Not everybody shares his obsession for the game, as we seen even at club level with Jamie Clarke on the Cross documentary. Even at club level the enjoyment of the game he grew up with has completely gone. Times that by 10 for county football. Not everybody finds it as easy to buy in to the professionalism. I think there needs to be a step back from that approach, which is difficult obviously as if you do that then you'll fall behind.  I'm basing this on assumptions but perhaps he's not suited to managing a large bunch of lads that all need handled in different ways.

I'm sure everybody knows at this stage that the vast majority of Joe's columns can be taken with a pinch of salt.  However if you look hard enough, remove the anecdotes and condensed his article into one or two paragraphs, most of the time he does have a valid point. He prefers the dramatics in his delivery, but for me hits the nail on the head more often than not.

For anybody else abroad:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=w2aCVpOCGFI

Any chance of seeing it anywhere other than iplayer?

It's on BBC2 tomorrow night around 11:30

Sorry should have said...in Oz

Any chance of seeing it anywhere other than iplayer?

Damien Barton got significant tv air time from a Derry journalist on BBC about Tiarnan's altercation with Rodgers. This occured a week after the incident as well, if I recall correctly!

Fair point, and certainly with some things Tyrone can feel aggrieved, but we'll see how things pan out now with Neil McGee and what way Donegal react, I don't think they'll feel like there's a witch hunt. If you do something like what McCann did, Barton did or McGee did, you deserve your punishment.  Tyrone seem to massively go on the defensive in the aftermath of their incidents.  And maybe that does stem from them feeling picked on, or maybe it's something to admire that they all stand behind each other. But Barton took his punishment and I'm fairly certain whatever is handed out to McGee, he will accept as well. Maybe not

Does every GAA row now have to be about Tyrone? Damian Harvey and others tweeting about Kerry-Donegal game saying 'if that was Tyrone blah blah'... we're getting an awful complex altogether...

It is true. Tiernan McCann goes down easily and the country goes crazy - plastered over back pages, banned for months, harassed, abused online etc. But Kerry and Donegal game ends after several fist fights with blood drawn from quite a few players and it'll be forgotten after a day.

+1

And it has an impact, look at how all the nonsense in recent years put forward about Tyrone has played out. The young lads at the centre of the sledging incidents last year had their names dragged through the mud, untoward pressure was put on the disciplinary body to make up rules to ban McCann with similar incidents involving other counties going unpunished, the u21s had their AI title capture devalued by a load of sour grapes from Tipperary, instead of talking about the great performance of our players, all we were hearing was talk about sledging, cynicism etc.

We seem to be only one that has our history recorded in a log book and brought under the spotlight when it comes to unsavoury incidents, although I certainly believe any of the other northern sides would have to deal with the same treatment if they got up to our level.

Kerry, Mayo, Dublin etc have all been involved in a number of unsavoury, cynical and unsporting incidents in the past 4/5 years but these are all paid scant lip service to and don't follow them around as a result.

I do believe over the last 10-15 years Armagh have been up at 'your level' and don't recall them having to deal with such issues.  Maybe its because they didn't bring it upon themselves. 

I do agree that the whole Tiernan McCann thing was blown completely out of proportion and proposing an 8 week ban was ludicrous. But maybe a few bad apples have given the team and county a bad name, the actions of McMeniman over the years wouldn't have helped, nor the diving. But McCann was lucky not to get a suspension for his elbow in the McKenna Cup, and I don't believe there was much of a witch hunt after that?

But I don't doubt there is a very different approach when it comes to teams like Kerry, Dublin etc than Tyrone. I suppose we'll not know how the media react til any of the other northern teams get up you 'your level' 

Quare miss my Cavanagh. Weird shot. Did he try to pass it into thr top corner?

Exactly what he tried to do. Which is unlike him and why he held the hands up in apology. Would normally hammer it home. Like the first one.

Why is that out of order?